Final blog post for semester

I’m actually pleased with my year thus far. As I wrote about the last time we did this I had been having a great year, reading a lot more, I was keeping my own journal at home, and really just exploring a lot of things that I never had and was enjoying it. Now I feel like things have changed somewhat. I don’t know if it’s lack of sleep or whatever but I’ve just felt very disjointed. I don’t know exactly how to explain it; it’s just feeling time pass away. I don’t know what it is but if I had to guess I would blame it on winter. I never seem to deal too well with winter, I just feel as though I’ve gotten lost in my thoughts and not in a productive way. I don’t really know though, maybe I’m just making problems where there are none, it’s not really worrying me that much it’s just annoying.  I just wish I could go back to the way I was in the beginning of the year, I felt so self- aware then. I didn’t have that feeling of time just flying by. I was really alive. I don’t know though, it’s probably just winter. I’m fairly confident that I can get back on track following midterms.

Anyway I would like to say that A.P Lit is by far my favorite class and I’m not just saying that. I’ve really enjoyed everything we’ve done in there. The short stories, objectivism, and transcendentalism (I love transcendentalism).  I’m still not a huge fan of writing essays but seriously, who his? And I don’t hate them nearly as much as I used to. My feeling towards this class can be simply summed up in the fact that it has become the only class I really try in anymore.

I’m excited to see what my final semester has to bring. I think that’s the first time I’ve ever been excited for second semester. Most years I’m thinking “my god that was only the first half!” I’m looking forward to taking astronomy and creative writing. I have a many, many more books I want to read. I got a ukulele for Christmas so I’m looking forward to teaching myself that. Baseball should be…interesting… And I am REALLY looking forward to warmer weather. All I can hope for is that I can savor and enjoy this final semester of high school. I’m wishing for minimal regrets and sunny days…literally, I need the sun back.